I think I’ve got it! It’s a simple concept but oh so difficult to accomplish – and definitely takes a lifetime to achieve.
This has to be it. Everything else is truly just circumstance. Circumstances that you choose to take advantage of or not, but circumstances nonetheless. The only way to truly live life to its fullest intention is to understand how you relate to others. In this realization, you free yourself from limitation and everything that leads to limitation: guilt, shame, hypocrisy, etc.. The closer I come to understanding who I am, how I came to be the person I am today – the faster I move in the direction of becoming who I want to be. I understand that my actions and reactions are primarily emotionally driven. That knowledge allows me to step out of my emotional self, and begin observing myself from an intellectually constructive angle. Does it make sense that I am so angry? Where is this anger coming from? How else could I show my anger? What emotions or thoughts am I having that are mere results of my anger? Does this anger ultimately offer insight into who I am? The older I get the more I am able to actually pause long enough to answer most of these questions. In doing so, I become closer to the person I see in the mirror when my mirror is clear.
I want more out of my life. These days my anger is mostly about wanting more. I have to figure out how much more – why I want more – and how I can find the motivation to get more.
I’ll keep you posted. 🙂